バブル...氣泡... bubble.sss

大家好! I always hear EmiL said that... hahah!! Da Jia Hao!

So! I do some new updates with this blog recently and decided to post something now.

Well... EmiL is coming to my place this time. This is such a golden oppurtunity to me...

who knows... when will be the next time... maybe there's no.. or maybe there's yes.

But most of all. I am really sad.Depressed.Down. a thousand times sad than i would ever be.

I can't go to see him. I would like to go. Yes I would! I do very very very would to see him.
To meet him of course. That won't happen. I'm 15 years old...don't understand chinese cause

 I don't speak chinese. My parents won't let their child go watching concert for sure. And...

he's chinese singer. My parents wouldn't accept a person like him to be adore by me cause they don't even know him and they'll see him -nothing-. they'll never understand why do I like him this much. they just don't really know who is a person is EmiL chaU for me.

And they don't even understand me. Why it's too hard for them just to understand what I feel. 

What's my interests.What I do really actually want they to understand in me. What they want I to do is... 

hear and do every single thing they said or they want. Sometimes. they never satisfied with what have I achieve. They always want me to do my best at everything. Yes I know. I should to my best on everything.

But once I failed.. Why can't they give me more supports rather than not being satisfied.

Yeahhh I know that's what a good child do to their parents... 

But... Please.. Please just to understand me... only for this time. give me some chances..

 why it's too hard for them..

I don't know. EmiL chaU. a guy that I will treasure my life for. He's something that's very precious to me.

He's different to me... I never found someone like him. since I know him...

my life.. totally changed... I got new dreams... new lifestyle. new hopes...

Every single actions... face expressions.. makes me feel happy.. and cheers..

his voice... make me feel soothe... every single thing of him cheer my lfe. 

always make my life brighter than it would be.

when time keep passing... I just feel like love him more. even that I know that means nothing. 

He don't even know me. not even a little. And he live in another life that's much more different from me.

he got his own life... he got his own family. I'm nothing to him now and forever.

But. still my feelings won't changed. I never like someone like this before...

He's being everything to me. Even though it's hurt my feelings like this...

I just can't stop it... why!!!??? Why do I like him this much...

this feelings.. are they an eternal feelings...? I don't know...

 To adore EmiL at my age.with my life situation...To say that I love him. like him. very much.

 that may be seems strange. I myself don't know... He comes into my life so sudden. and he live in my mind... my heart... my life for eternity.

I just hope that one day a miracle would happen. I want to meet him.

JUST WANT TO MEET YOU. EMIL CHAU.

that's my only dream. my only wish. my only hope.

I'll keep care.support.love.you.

I just want to meet him.

Just that. 

周-華-健

What a GREAT man that i had ever know in my life.

Uncle HiaJian. I don't have any word to describe you.

it's all unspeakable... in my heart.

I LIKE YOU!!! 我喜歡你!!!

I just want to meet you!!! just that!!! that's the only thing that I want!!

why must all this happened!!! I first saw you in a video with Jackie Chan...

the song " 朋友 " is the 1st song that I hear from you. I fall for the song.

later and time keep passing... I just want to know you more just because of that song!

At the first sight . I said to myself that I won't like you! 

Then, it can't be helped! it's you!

A guy with a long haircut... a guy with a silver necklace... that what I saw at first.

But.... as time keep passing I don't know how... I just want to know you more and more...

with this little 'know'-ing about you.. I found that You're something that I can't let go...

something that's different from others!!! something that I treasure! 

something that's very precious... You're the only one of you... no one else can replace you.

It's such a complicated feelings to me to like you this much! to adore you this much!!

 to LOVE you this much!

It's USELESS!! I keep telling myself that word.

IT's USELESS!!! just stop it!!! stop adoring him!! stop keeping a big wish to him!

BUT! still I can't do anything!!! it's you! YOU! 周-華-健.

Hearing your voice... watching your videos... watching every single action of you...

see-ing you smile and laugh in videos. to see you have many fans around ...it makes 

me hurts more deep inside.. 

cause I know that i won't reach you... the highest star on my every night...

you won't even see me from such a long distance. something that's always on my mind is..

I should be happy and always cheer and give supports to you.

Hua Jian... I'll always stay by your side... like a wind..

i will stop blowing if you feel cold.. i will blow as strong as i can when you're hot...

i'll make it rain when it's necessary to you...  

Uncle HuaJian...

I want to meet you... just to see you smile at a clear distance... even just for a momment.

I wish that you would know me... knowing that how much I adore you...

I'm too late... you're 52 and I'm 15. what a big different...
No matter what.... to be someone that you know , you love and appreciated is very precious and priceless.

but.. still i'm no one to you.... NO ONE to you... that's me..

No Matter how I feel to you..... How I miss you... How I sse your photos everyday just to tell that I
 miss you...How I make efforts to know you more... I'm still no one to you...

Dear Uncle 周華健 : I'm happy to see you happy... I'm worried to see your tired face...

I'll keep supporting you! keep loving you as much as i can! Keep Liking you as I can't hate..

to adore you as the only one...

Hua Jian... Wo Ai Ni!

GOD... Please fulfill my wish that I've been hoping for all time.

26 October 12 Night

What A DAY.

Everything seems very different today especially tonight.

Knowing that you'll be coming to my place, Malaysia really makes me feels complicated.

I'm really excited to know that... but, at the same time..

I feels very down and depress deep inside..sad... i can't describe it..

I know that I won't make it. To see you.. nor to meet you.

Uncle HuaJian... why! why must be you that i adore that much! why YOU!

Even that I know you got your own life and i'm nothing to you.. but it can't be helped!

I just can't lie to my feeling. You won't know how I feel! To adore someone that really don't even

know you and leave very far away... such an undescrib feelings to me.

I want to meet you really !!! that would be the best ever and forever thing in my life.

But... I know that it won't happened. You're coming on next new year... on January 2013.

the problems is: 1. I just passed my examination. results will be out on 20 Dec 2012 I guess. Can I score straight A's??? If not... My LIFE! It'll totally meaningless.

2. My parents won't let me go.

3. I don't think what i'm thinking is going to happen.

SO... Uncle HuaJian... I don't know what to say anymore...

I just hope that a miracle will happened... would it be??? :(

+ + "

YOU.

Warghhh!!! it's been a long time.

HuaJian! miss you very much!!! Recently I think of you very often.

waiting for your every 'Bubbles' on wakin.com patiently.

SO! it's very hard for me to get every update of you since I'm not in China! And I don't speak chinese!

What a sad! :( I wish that I'm near to you.

Far across the distance, near to my heart. That's you.
It seems like you are really busy lately.

Your bubble said that you will stop runnin' because that you are really tired.

Please don't be worry. that's what you said.

HuaJian... Somehow I think that I'm losing you someday... Will I meet you before the time???

I wish I could. It's my only dream to meet you. To see you with my own eyes...

 

 

HUAJIAN

Hi.. Hello.

Uncle HuaJian! will be leaving you again...

somehow I feel like this time will be the long 1.

 doesn't matter. So. it's hard to say goodbye huh..
Will be missing you for sure!

so.. Like as I LIKE to say...

take a good care of your health.. don't push urself too hard..

eat.. something that make sense for ur health.

don't drink! and don't smoke! please don't smoke. 

i'm begging you with that. it's not good for ur health.

Okay! exercise frequently. don't work for 24 hours. u're not machine!

sleep on ur bed! not SOFA!sleep in ur room! not studio! okay!

soooo... byee! ZaijiaN!

Zaijian! will be missing you very much!

I heart you. = ="

don't know why.

so HERE!

some new interesting photos that i've found today!

totally about 2000 and above of his photos stored in my computer.= ="

now, this is my FIRST (1) EMIL CHAU's album!!! very excited!

kyaa!!!

that's all.